Home??

Back to our life in Canada. The time in Rwanda feels like a dream, but so much more.  As I was driving back home from an appointment, I caught the scent of diesel and instantly I longed to be back.  How do I begin to express the impact this trip made on my life? It was more than a mission, it was seeking out future possibilities for our family, for our future.  In discovering Rwanda, we didn't just want to see the beautiful, the needs, the land, we wanted to seek out what was challenging, difficult and heartbreaking.  If we are truly serious about living there, we couldn't  ignore the realities of the struggles we may face.  

Coming over as a white family would bring challenges.  Sacrifices would need to be made, the normal and comfortable would be stripped away.  I can understand that.  I experienced that while in India. So much is different in Rwanda, yet by the time we left, it felt comfortable. . .

What does this mean? Does it mean we are moving?  (Dozens are asking) well, quite honestly, IF God wants us there, we will go.  But, it's still a process, there's still clarifications we need, details to be sorted out . . .but, in it all, I am not stressed.  God will show us.

Settling back is challenging.  There is still the fatigue of jet leg, slight dizziness from malaria pills, reports to finish, school to plan and and a garage sale to prep for, plus a full calendar  . . .yet I am not stressed.  The fatigue will improve, the reports will be complied.  School prep (and supplies) will be ready in due time-if we start a few days late, it's ok. Garage sale is key, as funds will go back into our missions fund . . .good thing I have helpers:).  It will be fine.  As we learned in Rwanda--no worries.

The list of what I miss from Rwanda continues to grow, but at the top are the people.  I was so encouraged by Papa and Mama JoJo (so you know, when your first child is born, you take on that name as their Papa or Mama.  Kim and I would be Papa and Mama Nathan).  It's incredible how quickly your heart can connect with someone, regardless of race, status, etc.

I've heard that home is where your heart is.  If that's the case, I must hold a dual citizenship, as my heart is here with my family and there with the people of Rwanda.